Balancing Energy

As most of you know, self care and balancing my energetic state has been a sole focus of my study for over two years now. Learning about how society views self care was my start. I was taking in all the information and recommendations of others on how to take a care of myself and seeing what worked and what didn’t. I tried many different things and techniques like daily baths, massages, meditation, energy cleansing techniques and more. These things worked temporarily but it never failed that I would go through the day feeling like my body and soul was beaten.

I then shifted in to this understanding that taking care of myself was something that I used to naturally do as a child and after some time had totally disregarded it. I studied why that switch from natural self care and regulation to ignoring myself until I crashed happened. I wanted to know why I couldn’t make this natural nurturing that we do as babies last for more than a few hours for myself now.

At one point I had been meditating for eight hours a day. People usually seem shocked when I mention that but I was sneaking it in anywhere I could because I really wanted to feel that light energetic self that I was all the time and the only way I knew how to do that was to continue meditating for as long and as often as I possibly could.

I was given a book one day that explained low energetic states and control dramas to me and my heart sunk. This was exactly what I had been looking for. It explained what we feel like when we are naturally taking care of ourselves or around others who aren’t naturally taking care of themselves. It explained how to maintain that energetic state and really tap into that flow of energy that keeps you feeling light as long as you are willing to maintain it.

After studying this concept and applying it to my life, with my kids, with everyone I could talk to about it, I was introduced to Human Design. This is where things started clicking for me! Not only was I able to balance my energy state but I was able to understand how my energy works, what things actually help to nurture my soul specifically for me, and how to maintain this state while connecting with others.

Knowing these things has reduced the rate of conflict in my relationships with others and my kids with each other. That understanding alone has impacted my life in so many ways. I’m no longer the believer that fighting with someone means you truly love them as I’ve heard so many people say. Now I believe understanding yourself and someone else means you truly love and connect with them.