Blindfolded

January 31st 2021

I’m sitting with this idea of what it has been like to be living my life up until this point and recognizing its a lot like being blindfolded. Because my eyes were covered, my other senses were picking things up constantly and doing their best to decipher what was actually happening but the full truth or what was really going on was never quite available.

My world opening up to personal development, meditation, astrology, and human design was like the blindfold slowly coming off in layers allowing me to see myself for the first time. I started out on this journey just wanting to be a better person, longing with such a strong desire to find a way to make my life and the lives of those around me better. It then shifted into this space of recognizing I needed to take care of listen to myself first before I could get better. I had to face what was actually presently happening in myself and my environment. I had to stop running away from my problems and really be face to face with them. After that I realized there’s parts of me that are trying to be seen and they were showing up in books, podcasts, and all the studying I was doing.

So much started to happen as I took the blindfold off of myself and really took a good look at who I was and who I am. There was so much value in it for me to see my own patterns in life that were keeping me in this loop of never really understanding myself. Lately I’ve been referring to my human design open centers to see what wants to be shown. There are some beautiful questions that come up in each center that encourage me to reflect on my week, my day, my life and give me a perspective of how I am nurturing myself and where it would really benefit me to take a closer look at what encourages me to be the best version of myself.

After passing on the not self questions to a couple friends it feels like it might be time for me start putting a worksheet together that covers these same categories for others on their own path at looking inside themselves and to pass on the value to others as they feel connected to it.