Mind Meditation

January 9th, 2021

I am noticing in my meditation, what a pull my mind has to try and find things and topics to work on that would be me initiating and creating frustration for myself. It wanted me to sort all of Paytons books into categories, which to my emotional center feels like something I’d proud of. It wants me to pick a chapter book, read it, create and entire schooling session out of it and keep it on standby to suggest to her. All of these feel like a lot of work in hopes that she would benefit from it or be excited to experience it. The one thing I’m learning is that doing work out of a hope to be appreciated or be of use never ends well for me, it leaves me feeling drained and is my complete not self keeping me busy. Right before my meditation ended I got the information that I don’t need to go looking things to do according to what my mind says, everything comes for me to respond to in perfect timing.

If I am feeling the desire to create, it’s most likely because information is coming in for me to create with. It’s a beautiful warning system that is here to prepare me, prepare my energy, and open my eyes to receive what is coming in all on it’s own. Searching is the exact opposite of what I am called to do. Waiting is the answer. So when I’m feeling this rush, I am meant to nurture and take care of myself to keep me in an open state of receiving what is meant to come in.