Trusting the Moment

January 27th, 2021

There’s so much I can’t see ahead of me. I often get glimpses of what could be but questioning it usually puts me in a place of looking at it through a mental lense. Moving into this space of what I see glimpses of that I don’t fully understand and doing it anyway, is what I know to be called a leap of faith. Many reserve that phrase for big moments, big decisions, and big shifts in ones life. What I’m recognizing is that everything I do is a leap of faith and not one thing is bigger than the last. I had a moment today of really sitting with this phrase that kept showing up for me of “Am I going to take the leap of faith that this is the step to take?” and what followed was a deep breath.

So often I question myself in ways like: what I am doing, what I am saying, is this right? Each time I am met with physical responses as if I was in danger and mental thoughts of panic. What I am being called to do is just trust the moment and that feeling feels like a deep breath to me. A release of energy that needs to be let go and a breath of new air that brings in new information. It’s after a few of those deep breaths I can really tap into what my body says in the moment.

I’ve spent a lot of time recently teaching the kids to tap into their body. I stopped doing specific meal times with them and asked them to check in with their body throughout the day when they were hungry and eat when they felt called to. Like with many changes and learning to listen to your body instead of your mind it takes a while to make the change. They mentally ate with wild abandon for a few days snacking all day. Then slowly the novelty of the freedom wore off and they started moving through their day doing what they wanted and then would randomly look up and ask me if it was time to eat. I’d giggle and say, “it seems so if your body is telling you to”. We are now at this point in the house where they are eating when they feel called to and I love seeing how often it naturally aligns that we all end up at the table together, some finishing up, some just beginning, and how beautiful the conversations that flow around it.

There are other ways this is showing up in our family like bedtime, naps, and when we feel called to connect with each other. The main thing that’s showing up for me right now is that trusting what I am doing in the moment is what leads me to connecting with my body and that deep breath of knowing that whatever is happening in this moment is exactly what I need.