Red Room
The more I live in this body and experience these experiences, the more I understand who I am and what works best for me. I spent the first 30 years of my life figuring out what isn’t write for me, and I am now spending many years going forward figuring out what does. I now understand how to take care of myself in ways I’ve never experienced before. I now understand how to communicate in ways I have never experienced before. I now understand how to set and hold boundaries in ways I have never experienced before. It is incredible what life will teach you if you are willing to listen…
Diving Deeper
With each new day it feels like I am diving deeper into myself. I have dedicated so much time and energy into understanding who I am as a unique individual. I’ve been releasing the old versions of me, the virtual assistant who did everything for everyone but nothing for herself, the mom of three who juggled all the things, the wife who spent all her time trying to make things perfect, and so many more versions that feel like lifetimes ago.
Observe Before Respond
I’m being reminded today to observe before I respond. There are so many scenarios in this house where I have the opportunity to respond to what the kids are doing in a way that would look like teaching from anyone outside. What I am recognizing is that sometimes when I step in and help or teach prior to allowing them to problem solve I sometimes create more problems rather than solve them.
Trusting the Moment
There’s so much I can’t see ahead of me. I often get glimpses of what could be but questioning it usually puts me in a place of looking at it through a mental lense. Moving into this space of what I see glimpses of that I don’t fully understand and doing it anyway, is what I know to be called a leap of faith. Many reserve that phrase for big moments, big decisions, and big shifts in ones life.
Fully Supported
Have you ever walked into a place knowing that what you would be facing could be a difficult scenario? I woke up today knowing that this could be me and did my best to stay grounded and in a place of trusting the universe to hold me and guide me exactly where I needed to be.
Fear vs Love
I had a vision of Payton coming up to me to sit in my lap. She wanted to connect and be in my energy. Max followed quickly behind but a fear of sharing me filled her little body and she resisted allowing Max into the space.