Fully Supported

January 25, 2021

Have you ever walked into a place knowing that what you would be facing could be a difficult scenario? I woke up today knowing that this could be me and did my best to stay grounded and in a place of trusting the universe to hold me and guide me exactly where I needed to be. I walked in and was met with someone who met me in this energetic flow and put a smile on my face. I’m so pleasently surprised by those who hold themselves in such a way that invites others to really enjoy the moment they are in. I am very thankful that I had prepared the night before and gave myself plenty of time to set up my day in a pleasent way. I feel grateful that the energy I put into creating this space for myself was met with another who did the same. It’s an interesting feeling to feel completely supported by universe when you take the steps you need to be the version of yourself you are most proud of.

That feeling carries on throughout the day if you allow it to. I came home riding on the energy of my interaction and knew that no matter what happened today, I could be the space that invites others to join in the beautiful energetic feelings I am feeling. Studying astrology has been one of my go to’s for diving into myself and seeing spaces of growth that are available to me. Each Sunday night I’m met with a new wealth of information to dive into and that’s just what I did. I get so many beautiful insights and am always in awe of the way it is delivered with such passion and pride in the work that was done to create it. You can absolutely tell when someone loves the work they do, it glows in everything they put out in a way that just baffles most. You are drawn to it and enveloped by it’s warmth each time. It reminded me how beautiful it’s been for me to find work that creates this same kind of energy outside of me as it does inside of me.

I am being encouraged to be present with what it is I am growing into. For me that feels like a mindful parent, friend, and person. I am really feeling into this space of encouraging others to be themselves and make decisions that feel right in their body since that has been the focus of my own learning. I’m in a season of deeply studying and experiencing how we each learn as individuals and how our interests are showing up and guiding us on the path we are meant to live. It’s a huge step of letting go of this fear that we aren’t learning what we need and instead focusing on HOW we learn best. The what will come naturally in the perfect timing, but what’s really the key here is, do we know how we learn? Do we know what learning looks like to us, feels like to us, and what steps we take in our learning process? Do we know how unique we are in our own individual learning and that it doesn’t need to look a certain way? Do we trust that we are learning with each breath we take?

James has been encouraging me to switch the focus on myself a bit because I tend to get lost in studying and focusing on the rest of this household. Sometimes I get so caught up in it that I forget to check back in with myself or I take a step in and keep whoever I’m connecting with from taking a step on their own. It’s one of the things I’m really noticing. I can’t take the hard lessons away from everyone, sometimes they just have to go through it themselves while I sit and love them as much as I possibly can! Plus watching them find themselves a little more with each step they take is so darn exciting, it’s been helping me step back more and more. His encouragements are so in line with my astrology this week and although it shouldn’t by now, it surprises me and takes my breath away at how much he sees in others including myself.

My own learning and creativity is the focus the next few days along with family, my home, and how I ground myself. This week in astrology the planets are lining up in my chart around my inner experieinces, my needs, and the foundations I have and how they play a role in my life. It’s putting a focus on my creative energy and how I am spending it. I’m called to check in and see if it is bringing me closer to my overall hopes and dreams that I have for my life. This is a time to dive into my dreams and really believe that I am able to manifest them in this lifetime.

I wanted to take some time to really tap into this vision I have for my life. I wanted to connect to that space that I know is inside of me, the place that I created that guides me to this dream like life I knew was designed uniquely for me. I took some time to do some deep breathing and meditate before I wrote out my current vision. This is what came out of it:

My vision for my life includes this beautiful freedom to wake up each day and move exactly as I feel called to. One where I am able to move through my experiences with complete support from myself. Where I’m overflowing with abundance that I never could have imagined. One that flows from simply living my life for a living. One where I am free from the shackles of anyone else’s opinions because I move from a place of future understanding and I recognize that it isn’t meant to be understood by everyone I meet. I feel so secure in my choices and I am living in this solid foundation of knowing it only gets better as I go along.

The creative energy that puts me on this path of life is simply continuing to write and share my experiences with those who feel like connecting with me. Simply showing up for myself, responding to what the day brings and sharing the loving energy and insights that come in seem like the way towards the vision of my dream life. It’s like the universe is just continously asking me to choose myself on this path. How simple of a thing it’s asking of me and yet at the same time it can be so challenging. I feel so lucky that this is my choice. That I hold the power in my hands and that I get to hold those that I am surrounded by to the same choice.

It’s a life changing miracle when it’s chosen. It’s the most powerful energy I have ever experienced and it resides in me. My astrology this week mentioned recognizing a power struggle in a relationship that I deem above me. It’s funny because when it’s taken in like that, it’s easy to look at it as if it’s someone physically outside of us. In this case, it’s a different version of myself. For what feels like a lifetime, I have been at war with who I was and who I am. Who I was likes to take over and hold it’s weight on me as if it knows where this path might lead and is too afraid to go any further. Who I am knows exactly where I am going and the steps it takes to get there. Who I am understands that I can’t be who I was to get there but adores that part of me for bringing me to this point.

It’s time to hug it out with who I was, love it so much, shed a few tears at leaving it behind and lovingly let it go. It’s time to make the choice to step toward where I am going. This isn’t a one time thing but an every day choice and after all the work I’ve done, I know I am strong enough for this step each day.