The Root
I was asking myself the other day where the root of all of my experiences lie. So many lessons I have been learning recently have been coming together with a very familiar theme and I stopped for a minute to take it all in. I’ve read so many pages of my astrology and my human design to study who I am and what I am called to do here and often they seem so unclear and questions are constantly popping up around them. I’ll have an experience and say to myself, “Is this it? Is this what I am here to do?” but lately there’s been a trend.
Diving Deeper
With each new day it feels like I am diving deeper into myself. I have dedicated so much time and energy into understanding who I am as a unique individual. I’ve been releasing the old versions of me, the virtual assistant who did everything for everyone but nothing for herself, the mom of three who juggled all the things, the wife who spent all her time trying to make things perfect, and so many more versions that feel like lifetimes ago.
Observe Before Respond
I’m being reminded today to observe before I respond. There are so many scenarios in this house where I have the opportunity to respond to what the kids are doing in a way that would look like teaching from anyone outside. What I am recognizing is that sometimes when I step in and help or teach prior to allowing them to problem solve I sometimes create more problems rather than solve them.
Celebrating Me
Birthdays as an adult has always been such an elusive thing for me. I’ve always understood celebrating the kids birthdays because my own childhood was filled with great memories there, but as an adult it always felt like something was off about celebrating myself.
Fully Supported
Have you ever walked into a place knowing that what you would be facing could be a difficult scenario? I woke up today knowing that this could be me and did my best to stay grounded and in a place of trusting the universe to hold me and guide me exactly where I needed to be.
Fear vs Love
I had a vision of Payton coming up to me to sit in my lap. She wanted to connect and be in my energy. Max followed quickly behind but a fear of sharing me filled her little body and she resisted allowing Max into the space.